This is why I write.

Despite my earlier whining, I still didn’t get much done today. Sometimes you just have to give in.

I spent this afternoon converting my old entries to the new Movable Type system. It’s not exactly glamorous work, but it does give me a chance to read through some of my old entries.

I went through a curious period, but in between all the narcissistic and self-absorbed rants about the church, faith, society, and patriotism, there was a lot going on. This was a period when my grandpa died, I found out a good friend was anorexic and had attempted suicide, I learned of the death of a high school classmate, and my parents remarried, among other things. For part of that time we held our breath whenever the phone rang.

While I blabbered on about wanting to write a book every few months, I stumbled across some interesting fiction writing, much of it based on what I was going through. Much of that fiction hits me now in a much deeper way. Those fiction exercises worth noting include one inspired by my grandfather’s death, an older one written in response to my ex-girlfriend losing her mom, and a plethora of writings about anorexia (1, 2, 3, and 4).

This is why I write. Not for you, but for me.

4 thoughts on “This is why I write.”

  1. That writing about your Grandpa’s death was done for our Creative Writing class, wasn’t it? I seem to recall something on the subject when I had a good writing about my father talking about his father’s death.

  2. Nope, the writing about my grandfather’s death was in 2002, long after college. I might have written something similar in college, who knows. I did create the character Sedgewick in that fiction writing class we had.

  3. Wow. You’re still at it, eh?

    This brings to mind one of my favorite movies, “It’s a Wonderful Life,” in which George Baily (James Stewart) gets that chance to see what the world would have been like if he had never been born. If I was given the same opportunity, it is possible that none of this would be here. Thankfully, at the end of the movie, Clarence and Joseph would put everything back to the way it was, and monkeyoutanowhere would return to its glory.

    Glad to see the Daily Ponderings live on! Keep it up.

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