Why am I never happy with things the way they are? I have to have the newest, coolest, bestest. It’s more than apparent with these thoughts. They started with me copying someone else’s cool idea. I’ve updated the design of these thoughts several times, always trying to make them cooler. I added images at the top, I added the reading/watching/listening/surfing suggestions on the side, but I’m never quite happy. I look at my friends who have database driven blogs. They’re cool. They have comments and neato calendar displays and search capabilities and all this cool stuff you get with a database system. Yet I’ve resisted that step because I wanted more control, or some such nonsense. And now I’m thinking that I want to forsake control to have those spiffy features.

I think when it comes down to it I just like to play with web-based toys. But it has to be purposeless fun. I sat down today to work on a web site I was supposed to design months ago. I spent the time ogling database-driven blogs instead. What is wrong with me? My biggest fear is that I’ll spend countless hours converting these thoughts to a database system, only to find the next cool thing six months down the line and have to do it all over again. That seems to be the cycle of life.

And of all times to think of doing this, I pick when I’m unemployed. What a dangerous time suck.